authenticity 11.13.18

authenticity 11.13.18

Hi. I’m new here. How about you? ;) I’ve always been a writer of words. Circumstances over the past few (ten+) years have led me to this point of blogging again. Nothing fancy. Just a place for my voice to be heard even if it’s just me.

So, where to start?

I grew up not really ever being able to find my place. Yeah, I had friends and a few best friends, but nothing like a tribe of folks that I felt would be lasting friendships that would be there through the thick and the thin. I found that I was better at just depending on myself. You see, I’m quite the introverted-extrovert. Yeah, it’s an oxymoron, but the truth. I am a “to myself” kinda person, but can bring the extrovert, talkative me to a party or gathering in no time at all. Of course, after I play the part of the extrovert, I’m exhausted and don’t wanna talk for days. It’s totally exhausting. Seriously.

I honestly never knew what I wanted to do with my life. Like, ever. I had a hard time choosing a college major. I went from broadcast journalism, to education to aviation management to engineering. Engineering won and to this day I have no idea why. I loathed math in high school even though I was always in the advanced classes. It was a total pain in the ass. So, fast forward through seven years of college and into Corporate America. It was not the experience I had ever craved, wanted or expected. I hated it. I hated the industry. I hated being in a man’s world and having to fight to be heard. Yes, truth here. I had never really had a voice growing up so this made it increasingly hard to be an adult in a world where voices mattered. After fifteen years in corporate engineering, marriage and having two amazing little humans, I felt VACANT. I felt lost. I was a stay at home mom (SAHM) and felt my only worth was that of being a mom. I missed people (gasp), I missed feeling like I was contributing to something (anything!) and I missed contributing financially.

So, how did I find myself? In 2010, I had an epiphany that I needed more. It was life shattering. It felt like a mid-life crisis. It scared the hell out of me. Scared me to the bone. However, I followed the path and found my happy two fold. I discovered who I was and what made me truly whole and happy. That is quite personal and might be discussed many years from now, but one of the things that completed me was finding my tribe. My business allowed me to do that. What started as a venture with a friend has now turned into a mission to help me do more for others who have been in similar situations.